5 o'clock and Foul As Ever

I originally began this entry as a rant about Security, as is so often the case.

I'm just so gross and negative today. I have been since I woke up last night. Maybe it's the weird dream I had, maybe it has to do with how much death and depressing Ellie and I talked about yesterday, though it didn't bother me at the time, in fact I laughed about it quite a bit.

Maybe it has something to do with my diet and lack of exercise, or hormones, but I'm unhappy. I printed out a food journal, but I can't start using it today, not after eating two doughnuts and a bag of chips. I just want to go to bed after I get off of work, but I know I can't do that with how close my first test is. I even got insecure about Ex. #1 tonight because it seeded like I hadn't talked to him in a long time when in fact, I last spoke with him the day before yesterday. I haven't had that sort of problem in months. He actually had tried to call me, I just missed it.

So here are some goals I have for myself for today to try and help improve me and my mood:

1. Take a textbook to the fitness center and multi-task
2. Only have one coffee, no soda
3. Go to bed at 2:30pm, wake up at 9:30pm and exercise

Maybe my food journal will start tonight at 9:30, after I exercise. I've heard it improves body rhythms to exercise right after waking up, I've also heard it can improve mood.

Any other suggestions?