A Fit of Hysterics

I'm trying not to be a Puritan about this (The worst joke I've made all day?) but I'm still a little on the emotional side, and sometimes it's hard to tell the difference between a sign or omen in your life (though the way I mean seems much less superstitious than the words choice implies) and sheer clumsiness. The pearl fell out of my ring from Ex. #1, I can't find it and I can't get a hold of him. Of course I've only sent him a text message, no call and chances are he's asleep but my insecurities are trying to get me to think differently. I'm trying not to fall into the category of insanely jealous, crazy girlfriend. I have talked to him twice today (Millie is learning how to swim, she loves it.) so what is my DEAL??

Remember crazy swan dreams? Ex. #1 got to have sex dreams. I'm so jealous! The superstitious side of me wonders if there is any correlation between how much I missed him and wanted to see him, and what he dreamt. Last weekend I only saw him for three hours and that only made it worse. I'm trying to plan an overnight trip to Waco for next weekend, and then I'm spending the whole next weekend in Dallas.