September 16, 2009

Day two...

Was Hell on Earth. I forgot my nicotine gum at home, so I had to use my lunch break early to go and get it. It felt like I spent the whole day with my teeth clenched out of frustration, and it didn't seem like the gum was helping much. Not only that, but I have been coughing and clearing my throat about every 15 seconds, so now I have a sore throat. When I was smoking I did not have these problems. I am irritable, and my out look on life right now is "It isn't fair!" The first night Nick said to Lauren and Casey, "The Q's going to be mean for a while."

Today my mom and I are going to run around looking at wedding venues and I have a feeling it will really test me.
Casey seems to be handling it in the complete opposite way. He is hyper, I am depressed; He is enthusiastic about quitting, I keep wondering why I decided to do this.

4 comments:

sans_sanity said...

You decided to do this because you don't want to end up like this:

http://archive.student.bmj.com/issues/08/03/education/images/view_7.jpg

It'll get better. It won't last forever.

sans_sanity said...

ALSO, you're quitting because you want to save up for a house. That's the most important. And honestly, I may make it LOOK easy, but it's a gigantic shit storm in my brain. I'm just trying to make the best of it.

Ellie said...

Good for you, though. I can't even imagine wedding planning AND quitting at once.

Sam said...

Corley, I am so sorry! You're right, it isn't fair but I do think you're doing the right thing. I'm so proud of you for being able to stick with it. Hang in there!