I tried?

It’s been more than a year since I decided I needed to find a therapist. I say it about once a week, I think. Before 2019 ended, I found the name of a practice very near by. I finally called yesterday, and gave my info. I was told that they would double check my benefits to let me know my co-pay, and get back to me in the afternoon. I have not heard anything yet. While I recognize that this person is human, it took me more than a year to take this step. I dialed the number wrong three times. I nearly cried on the phone just worrying that they’d ask me about my primary concerns, and they haven’t called me back. It feels like someone stepped away during a trust-fall.